Taking back my life-the Beginning

Exactly one year ago today, I started to make a plan to get my life back on track. Obviously, I haven't made much headway, but as I read over that journal entry, I knew it was still the right place to start, to begin my journey to my own rainbow's end. Here is where I was, and it is almost exactly the same place, but with more determination to make it a reality.

Time to take back my Life......

It has been a little over 15 years since a tractor trailer ran through the front of the house, and started the downward spiral of what my life has become. We were so happy then. After so many years of working and waiting, I was so excited to finally have our little farm! We were homeschooling the kids, enjoying the critters, working in the garden. We were finally living the life that I had dreamed of. As I look back, trying to figure out when things went so wrong....that day was the beginning.

After my latest near breakdown, it is time to do whatever it takes to get that life back again. Time is too short, I am getting older, I need to do whatever it takes in order to have a clear mind and a happy heart again, like I did then.

March 22, 2010

I woke this morning to the rain pounding on the tin roof at the cabin. I couldn't wait to look around in the daylight...we moved the kitchen in over the weekend, and I rearranged the whole cabin. Now it should be a little more comfortable without the clutter. (you know me and clutter, just can't function that way). I have cleared my calender for the next three weeks, to begin getting life organized again, and get my mental state recharged. It was actually warm enough last night (first weekend of spring)...to stay over without building a fire! A little chilly this morning, but that's what my cuddly bath robe is for.

Today I think I will try to get the rest of the cabin cleaned up and things put away. I need to make space to bring in the paperwork for taxes and billpaying, but want to make sure it will make minimal clutter.

Lots of things to think about, lots of plans to put into action. I have just got to focus on one thing at a time, and start making progress on all the things that have piled up for so long. Income tax, first and foremost. Getting a budget plan in place next. Cleaning up the house for appraisal and refinance. Order the video schooling for junior, since that looks like our next step. Maybe this will be a good place for me to keep my thoughts organized. But today, with the rain on the roof....it might just be a good day to cuddle up with a book for a bit.......isn't that a part of recharging the mental too?